random note i wrote and lost and found again

I'm opening eyes with the rising sun, desperately wishing my eyelids would flutter me back to sleep.( they never do). I try to stand with shaky limbs and eyes dirty and glazed. The bathroom, my own personal sanctuary, it's where I reflect on what's been done, said and witnessed. I turn on the shower and stand in front of the mirror until the steam steals my reflection and I step into the burning waterfall. I can smell last night washing off my body.trickling down my arms and legs like secrets running away from discovery. My mind wanders to the night before. The mistakes made,the bonds formed, and the constant laughter of our youth. I step out quickly hoping to preserve just s hint of the night on my flushed skin. Almost undetectable,like the wind floating through the trees.you can't see it, but you can feel it every where around you. I know it's there and that's the only thing that matters. I wear it proudly, like a badge that reads "my life".secretly I'm hoping that someone will notice this thing about me.the always underlining layer beneath the surface.Hoping someone else will share my love for the last nights and morning afters.Hoping to make a new friend in this crazy life where the youth, run wild.